Sunday, May 10, 2009
LEAVE TO REMAIN ended last night.
Each of the nights was so different.
I feel i should describe them, record them somehow, but it feels impossible to do them justice.
The first night was full of fear; the second worked beautifully, with an astonishing discussion to follow.
the third i was a little too relaxed about, perhaps, and then panicked about 20 minutes in, thinking we were losing it..
It's made me aware of how utterly variable each experience is.. and how that perception i used to have that the main mountain to climb was getting the show on, and then somehow things would look after themselves.. how naive and misguided I was.
We have just climbed one mountain: and another huge one stretches ahead.
And me so horribly tired...
Each of the nights was so different.
I feel i should describe them, record them somehow, but it feels impossible to do them justice.
The first night was full of fear; the second worked beautifully, with an astonishing discussion to follow.
the third i was a little too relaxed about, perhaps, and then panicked about 20 minutes in, thinking we were losing it..
It's made me aware of how utterly variable each experience is.. and how that perception i used to have that the main mountain to climb was getting the show on, and then somehow things would look after themselves.. how naive and misguided I was.
We have just climbed one mountain: and another huge one stretches ahead.
And me so horribly tired...
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